Saturday, December 26, 2009

Thursday, December 17, 2009


How far along? 23 weeks 3 days
Total weight gain/loss: at my last doctors appointment I finally gained some weight 0.3 kg, not much but its a first for me. So right now I am still down about 9 pounds overall
Maternity clothes? yep
Stretch marks? Yes and they are gross
Sleep: I am starting to have a harder time sleeping. From waking up several times a night because I have rolled on my stomach and it is extremely uncomfortable or waking to go pee
Best moment this week:
Feeling baby kick for the first time and seeing my hubbies reaction when I told him I had felt baby move
Movement: See question above
Food cravings: Chocolate!!! I am also getting heart burn when I eat the chocolate so I guess I just can't win right now
Gender: No idea.... I did have a dream that it was a girl the other day though
Labor Signs: Still nothing :)
Belly Button in or out? Still in and hopefully it stays that way
What I miss: Back to beer.... how sad
What I am looking forward to:
Seeing this baby on December 26th- what a perfect christmas gift
Weekly Wisdom: Not sure if it's good wisdom but I was told several times today that labour is horrible
Milestones: Feeling baby... weird but amazing at the same time

Wednesday, December 9, 2009

Daddy to be

I am so excited to see M as a dad. I think he is going to be such a good dad. He has no experience with children let alone new born babies but I just know he is going to be such a good dad to our little one. It makes me so excited to start a family with him. I know that no matter what we can do this, together we will do this.

Saturday, December 5, 2009

New firsts

Friday was my first time at the hospital for this baby. Not the best first to be having but I am happy to say all ended well. I started having some fairly intense pains in my abdomen in the morning and but lunch time the pain was still in my abdomen and had spread to my back and then I started to puke so I called the health link and she told me to go to the hospital.
My parents came and took me to the hospital. After a 3 hour wait the doctor came in to say she was pretty sure it was round ligament pain and that we could go home. So while I am very relieved that it is nothing serious it really sucks that it's something I am just going to have to live with until the baby is bigger and my uterus is no longer hanging.

Monday, November 30, 2009


How far along? 21 weeks
Total weight gain/loss: as of my last doctors appointment i am down 10 pounds
Maternity clothes? yep
Stretch marks? No new ones that I can tell
Sleep: Sleep is okay except the waking to pee thing is really starting to suck
Best moment this week:
Making the appointment to see this baby and hopefully find out what he or she is
Movement: Still no movements being felt, stupid anterior placenta
Food cravings: Meat.... this baby is a meat eater i guess
Gender: Currently i am thinking boy
Labor Signs: Still nothing and I am happy to keep it that way for about 18 or 19 more weeks
Belly Button in or out? Still in
What I miss: Care free life where you don't have to think about anything before you do it. I guess we better get used to it
What I am looking forward to:
Seeing this baby on December 26th- what a perfect christmas gift
Weekly Wisdom: Stop complaining.... that is what I keep trying to tell myself. I wanted this so bad and I have to remember that we are very lucky be to expecting this baby
Milestones: Passing the halfway mark! It's coming up quick

Friday, November 27, 2009

20 weeks and my birthday

This past week we celebrated reaching the half way mark in this pregnancy and my 27th birthday. I am so happy to be half way done this pregnancy and that much closer to meeting our baby.

So far I am having a hard time connecting to this baby and when we found out that they could not tell us the sex of the baby I had a really hard time. I also found out that the placenta is anterior so it will be harder for me to feel this baby. I am desperate to find some kind of connection to this baby. When I say that it makes me feel like a horrible mom already but it's truly how I feel. So we decided to pay for another ultrasound since my doctor said she will not be giving me anymore. December 26th is hopefully the day we will find out what this baby is and I will have something to bring me closer...

Tuesday, November 17, 2009


How far along? 19 weeks 1 days
Total weight gain/loss: down 10 pounds. I talked to the doctor but she said she is not concerned that I am still loosing weight
Maternity clothes? pants for now but my other clothes feel like they are getting tighter
Stretch marks? No new ones that I can tell
Sleep: I am having a hard time getting comfortable as I normally sleep on my tummy and that is not so comfortable anymore
Best moment this week:
Hearing the babies heartbeat again. Even though you know things are good it is still reassuring
Movement: I was told at my ultrasound that the placenta is anterior which means it is in front of the baby. The doctor says this will make it harder for me to feel the baby move
Food cravings: Chocolate and ice cream
Gender: I am not sure anymore, it changes daily
Labor Signs: None although my boss keeps telling me that when my stomach gets hard all of the sudden it means that I am having braxton hicks, I don't know if that is true or not
Belly Button in or out? Still in
What I miss: Alcohol, still!!!
What I am looking forward to:
Meeting this little one and drinking a cold Corona
Weekly Wisdom: I am not sure I have any wisdom right now, baby brain has kicked in!
Milestones: Seeing baby again, it was so nice to find out that baby is still healthy

Thursday, November 12, 2009

Ultrasound Picture - 18 weeks 2 days

Baby payback

For the last little while we have been telling everyone who asks a small white lie. We have been saying that our big ultrasound was not until the 17th but it was actually on the 11th. We wanted sometime where it was only our news. We wanted sometime to bond with our little boy or little girl before everyone else did.

So yesterday we went to the ultrasound and found out that baby Teare is a very healthy.... baby. It turns out that baby Teare wanted to teach mommy and daddy a lesson about lying to people so he/she sat on it's feet the whole time we were there. The ultrasound tech tried to get it to move but baby would not budge.

I have a doctors appointment for next week so I am going to beg my doctor to give us another ultrasound. If she will not I think we are going to pay to have another one. I found out yesterday that I most definitely want to know. After we left the ultrasound office all I wanted to do was cry. Don't get me wrong I am SO happy baby is healthy but I really wanted to know and when the tech said she could not tell it was like the air was let out of my tires. I just wanted to yell at her to keep trying but being the nice, sometime sane person I am I did not.

Sunday, November 8, 2009

First big baby purchase

On Friday we made our first big purchase we got a crib.

It was on sale which was nice. This is the crib but we got it in a different color. I am so excited to have one thing out of the way.

Wednesday, October 28, 2009


How far along? 16 weeks 2 days
Total weight gain/loss: down 6 pounds well i was down last time I got weighed 2 weeks ago
Maternity clothes? pants - yes other then that I am still in my regular clothes
Stretch marks? No new ones
Sleep: My back has been killing me when I wake up... but I am sleeping fine. In fact I am more tired now then I was in the first trimester
Best moment this week:
Finding out that they had to move our ultrasound up to the 17th
Movement: I am not sure if I am feeling anything yet. A couple of times this week I have thought that I might be feeling some flutters but who knows
Food cravings: It changes on a daily wait hourly basis. If I see it or hear it mentioned I will want it!
Gender: Right now I feel like it's a boy but who knows I have never been pregnant before
Labor Signs: None and I hope it stays like that for the next 23 weeks
Belly Button in or out? Still in
What I miss: Alcohol!!! We had to go to the liquor store on the weekend to get wine for Kim's baby shower and it was like my worst nightmare coming true!
What I am looking forward to:
Meeting this little one and drinking a cold Corona
Weekly Wisdom: Not sure what to put here... maybe that it is my body and our baby so we need to do what is right for us not anyone else
Milestones: 16 weeks!!! Wow I can't believe I am almost half way there

Monday, October 19, 2009

15 weeks

Today I am 15 weeks pregnant. I have been having a rough couple of days. I have been having a really hard time with the idea that people only see me as a pregnant lady. I just want to scream "I am still human and I do have thoughts every once in a while that don't revolve around this thing that is invading my tummy space!!" I am very grateful that I have so many people in my life that care about the baby and I but for the love of god stop asking me how I have been feeling when I have told you that I have felt great every time you have asked me for the last 8 weeks.

I am so happy that this baby is on it's way into our lives but I really need to have a few minutes, days or maybe even weeks when I don't have to talk about or hear about this baby. When it's my choice to talk about the baby it's easier but I just need a minute right now.

I think I might be a bad mom already.... how sad.

Wednesday, September 30, 2009

Exciting baby news!

My god child was born today and I am so excited for my dear friends!! I just wanted to say congrats to you both and welcome to baby Kaiya!! Love her name by the way. I can't wait to met her. 

Baby Teare is already super stubborn!

Yesterday we had our NT scan. We got to see baby again and this time it actually looks like a baby! The tech had the hardest time getting the photos she needed and my abdomen sure paid the price for that one. She had to keep jabbing at my abdomen in an effort to try and get the baby to move the right way. After about 45 minutes baby finally moved and she was able to get the photos she needed. YEAH!!! I love to see baby as often as I can so it was great.

Sunday, September 20, 2009

To tell or not to tell, that is the question!

Here we are 10 weeks and 6 days along. I am so excited that we have made it this far! Most of the fears I was having at the beginning are gone, most. I really want to shout to the world that we are going to be having our first child but when is the right time to tell and how do you tell people? Who do you tell personally and who do you let others tell? There are a couple of people that don't know that I really want to tell myself but other then that I am just not sure. I don't want to offend anyone by not telling them personally but at the same time this news is about us not them so why do we have to make sure we tell certain people ourselves. 

When it comes to family I think we are going to leave it in the hands of our parents, both mothers have been very impatiently waiting to tell the world (one more understanding then the other) so I am sure they will be delighted to spread the news. 

One of M's cousins is getting married next weekend so that again is something we have to take into consideration. We most definitely do not want to take anything away from such a special time in there lives but at the same time I am ready to tell now and I am a bit, maybe it's these raging hormones, irritated that my news has to take a back seat to hers. I did not time it so that we would be ready to tell just when she is about to get married. I am done hiding it from people! I want to tell now!

I guess deep down inside I know that waiting a little while longer is the right thing to do for us and for M's cousin I am just ready now and I am so excited!

Sunday, September 13, 2009

First Baby Gift

Last week we got our first baby gift. Some amazing friends gave us some cute onesies with kitties on them. They also gave us a beautiful hand made blanket. It means so much to know that they care about us enough to make the baby something. It is so beautiful and I am sure baby T will love it! Thank you!!!

Saturday, September 5, 2009

First Ultrasound

We had our first ultrasound on Thursday. They moved me up two days so our official EDD is April 12, 2010. Baby looked good, really it just looked like a blob but a good blob. Heart beat was really strong at 167 so that was great to hear. We go back for our NT scan on September 29th so I am looking forward to that. 

My morning sickness is pretty much gone. As long as I eat every few hours I feel good. YEAH!

Tuesday, September 1, 2009

8 Weeks

Tomorrow I will be 8 weeks and I am very excited. I really thought that I would not make it this far. I have my first doctors appointment tomorrow as well and I am hoping she will be able to give me some type of relief. If she does an internal exam she should be able to feel the size of my uterus so I am hoping all go's as expected. I am also expecting to get a requisition for my first ultrasound. I am really hoping that they don't make me wait until I am 12-13 weeks. That is WAY to long to have to wait. I want to go NOW I am so desperate to see a heartbeat.

I am so excited to be able to see this baby. Yeah for babies!!

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

6 weeks

Today we are six weeks along and I am feeling SO sick. I still have not puked but I feel like I am going to at any moment.

I am feeling so blessed to be carrying this baby. I am still preying for lots of sticky dust! We have a long way to go before we are out of the woods but I am so excited we have made it this far.

Yeah to being a mommy!!

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

Beta # 2

I forgot to post about my beta #2. Well 48 hours later my numbers went from 239 to 530. So it is definitely official we are expecting a baby. I called my doctor and I will go see her for my first visit on September 2nd. When I am there we will make the appointments for ultra sounds and any other necessary appointments. I am SO excited to see a heartbeat. I think once I see that some of my worries will subside.

5 weeks

Today we are 5 weeks along and as happy as I am it is really hard not to be SO scared that something is going to go wrong. I have already decided that I don't want to let these first few months pass us by because we are worried but I just can't help worrying. I hope that all goes fine and that next April we welcome the newest edition to our family. I am SO excited!!

Monday, August 10, 2009


So all I can think about are pickles. I would eat them all of the time if I could. I ate 5 of them the other day and I would have ate more but my mom was looking at me like I was going crazy. SO good!!! 

Wednesday, August 5, 2009


So we found out on Friday July 31st that we are expecting a baby. We have been trying for a year and a half and have never gotten a BFP. So we are ecstatic about this. We were on our third round of clomid and TI. 

We got our BFP at 11 days past ovulation so I was a little more then scared to believe it was true. I have pee'd on many sticks since then and all came back positive. So yesterday I went to have my BETA hcg (pregnancy hormone) tested. I called the doctors office today and my beta #1 was 239. A very good number for a first check. Now I have to go back tomorrow to make sure that my beta number is doubling. In a viable pregnancy your beta should double every 48-72 hours. So here's hoping that we have a great number when I call Friday for the results.

So I am happy to finally be one this ride, the line was long but in the end it will all be worth it.