Our little boy came home yesterday. It was the most scared and excited I have ever felt. He is still so small but he is doing so well and we are so lucky that he is happy and healthy.
He is a pretty good sleeper. He eats about every 3 hours, gets his diaper changed and then he sleeps. I am sure this will not last for long so we are going to have to take every advantage we can while we can.
Sam & Jack, our cats, are both handling everything really well. Sam was interested in finding out what was going on and now he appears to be fine with Kalen. Jack on the other hand is taking his time trying to figure out what is going on. He has sniffed Kalen a couple of times but for the most part he is still on edge about everything. I am sure he will be just fine if not in a few days then in a few weeks.
So far everything is going pretty well. I am tired but I feel good and I am excited to start this adventure of motherhood.
Kalen Andrew Teare made his way into our world on Tuesday March 23rd at 7:41pm. He weighs 4 pounds 6 ounces so is on the small side but he is doing well. He is currently in the NICU as they want to make sure he is eating and digesting like a champ. We are hoping that he will be home soon but it looks like it will most likely be there until early next week. I will post his birth story later.
I woke up this morning with very uncomfortable cramp like pains. I decided that I was not going to be going into work as the pains were pretty uncomfortable. For the first couple of hours after I woke the pains were pretty consistent and the pain was in my back as well. They were happening every 5 to 10 minutes but they eventually started to spread out and then go away.
It kind of sent me into panic mode as we are NO WHERE close to ready for this baby to come so I decided that it was time to wash all of his things. So after loads of laundry all his clothes are clean and I am in the middle of washing his blankets and sheets.
The pain has come back but is not consistent at all so we will see what happens. It could just be false labour. I have a doctors appointment tomorrow so we will see what she says. I have a hair appointment after my doctors appointment so I am really hoping this is false labour and she lets me go after the appointment. I am in need of a few me moments!
I woke up feeling fine but had to pee very badly. After I was done i wiped and as anyone who has struggled with infertility I checked the t.p. when I was done. There was nothing there so I stood up and felt what I thought was a bit of a pee leak.... haha a pee leak. When I wiped I once again looked at the t.p. and saw bright red blood. I was more then a little shocked as I had not experienced anything like this before.
The worst part was I was seriously debating if I should go in to the hospital or not. Not because I wasn't concerned but because I really did not want to go in. What kind of a mother decides not to go to the hospital because she is just sick of going? I am so scared that this experience has jaded me in a very bad way. I am so hopeful that once he is here these feelings will go away. I don't want to be making any bad decisions based on my own selfishness.
Well after waiting all day in the L&D triage they decided that we could go home. They are not sure where the blood came from so of course if it comes back I have to go back in right away.
My hope for the rest of this pregnancy is to not go back to the hospital until it's time to deliver.
This past weekend was our baby shower. My girlfriend Kim through the shower for us and she did an amazing job! She made so many things for the shower she most definitely outdid herself. It was everything I was hoping it would be.
It was so nice to see so many people there to celebrate this baby boy. Lots of friends and family came out and most definitely showered us with so many gifts. This will be one well dressed little boy!
Thank you Kim! You are an amazing friend and I am so happy to have you in Kalen's life.
It looks like this baby will be staying put for a while longer.
I have been feeling better lately, funny how eating solid food will do that to you. My OB has decided that as long as things are going well this baby will not be making his entry into this world until he is ready. So it looks like he won't be here until sometime in April.
I was excited for this journey to be over sooner rather then later but I understand that part of being a mommy is doing what is best for this baby. Now let's just hope Kalen feels like being as nice to me as I am trying to be to him.
Oh and I finally saw a plus on the scale. I gained about 5 pounds in the last week and a half. I know that sounds like a lot but considering I lost 10 pounds last time it makes sense that I would gain it back when I started eating solids again.
I had a doctors appointment today and after much discussion about the last weeks activities.... I lost 4 more kilograms.... I was told that when this baby reaches full term, 37 weeks, I will be induced.
I am so excited!!!!! I love this baby so much and I am definitely conflicted about wanting to keep him in there are long as possible but after everything that has happened I am DONE! So at my 37 week appointment plans will be made for this babies arrival.
Now back to the appointment. When I first walked in I peed in the cup like they ask then I went to get my blood pressure checked and weighed. Now I am sure any normal pregnant lady hates getting weighed but since I have not had a plus weigh in at all during this pregnancy I like them. Well more like I am interested to see what the number is going to say. This time I was down 4 kilos. The nurse looked at my previous weigh in and said "wow that is alot of weight to loose" I explained to her that I had not been able to eat for 5 days last week so I was sure that was the reason. So now when you convert the weight I have lot about 20 pounds. Everyone keeps telling me that you can see it one me. My face looks thinner my arms look thinner. It's nice but it is weird!!
So I would like to end this post with one last YEAH!! I am so excited that this baby will be coming soon! Can't wait to meet him and I can't wait to get this gal bladder out.