New stroller!!

We got a new stroller today and I am so excited for it's potential!

We got the Baby Jogger City Select and I am so excited for all of the different ways we can use this stroller. While we are still a one baby family we can use it in single mode and when the new baby joins us he will already be use to the stroller.

See all the combinations this thing can do:

19 weeks pregnant

Today I am 19 weeks pregnant today and I can't believe how quickly time is flying by. I had my 20 week ultrasound today and let's just say that this baby is just as stubborn as Kalen was. I have to go back next week because they could not get some of the pictures they need. Silly baby!!

How far along? 19 weeks
Total weight gain/loss: up 1 pound
Maternity clothes? yes
Stretch marks? Yes :(
Sleep: I find myself waking up on my stomach. It is very uncomfortable but it's how I sleep normally so I am sure thats why it keeps happening
Best moment this week: Seeing baby T #2 on the ultrasound
Movement: I have been selling small movements when I am laying down at night but that's it so far
Food cravings: STEAK!
Gender: I am not telling but I may know
Labor Signs: Nothing
Belly Button in or out? Still in
What I miss: Beer
What I am looking forward to: drinking a beer..... hahaha
Weekly Wisdom: nothing.....

Milestones: not sure we have reached any yet

Wow

Life has taken over. No more mommy free time, no more afternoon naps.

I have been crying a lot lately.... uncontrollably! Mostly at work which I am sure is a 50/50 split brought on by baby #2 and feeling so "temporary" at work. It's really embarrassing when my co-workers come into my office and I am crying for no real reason. I hope this is going to stop SOON!

The weirdest part about being back to work is that as much as it breaks my heart each morning to drop Kalen of at the day home I don't miss him when I am gone. Please don't take that the wrong way, I love him SO much and I love when I pick him up and he is clearly happy to see me. Maybe it's because he is with a friend that I trust so I don't have to worry about him. Maybe it's because I like being a mommy with more to talk about then just poop and sleep patterns.

I am now just about 17 weeks pregnant with baby #2 and all I can say is I am tried and emotional. I have been over reacting about most things for the last 2 weeks and even though I know that to be true (after the fact) in the moment I have no greater want then to punch someone in the face.... so instead I cry.

I am not sure this post was more then just a mangled up ramble but it's what is in my head right now.

It's almost here

I can't believe that my baby boy will be 1 tomorrow. He is changing daily and I am so in love with him!

He is starting to be a goofy baby. He will do things if he thinks you will laugh and he absolutely loves it when you play hide and seek with him. I love it that he scrunches his little nose when he likes what you are doing.

Tomorrow my baby will be a toddler and while I am excited for all of the adventures ahead I am sad to see this part of Kalen's life pass.

I hope I don't shed any tears tomorrow but I have a feeling I will.

I love you Kalen!!!!!

Doctors

When I found out I was pregnant I immediately made an appointment with my g.p to get referred back to the ob I saw when I was pregnant with Kalen. He had me go give some blood for tests they needed to do and to confirm the pregnancy. When the pregnancy was confirmed I was told they would contact me with an appointment with the ob.

I heard from my g.p a week later that the ob's office wanted me to go for a dating ultrasound and some more blood tests. I did that and have been waiting to hear about my appointment. Well I finally got a call back yesterday (6 weeks since this all began) my g.p wanted to see me. I went in today and found out that my ob has agreed to take me on as a patient again but will not see me until May 11th! I will be 20 weeks pregnant before I see a doctor. To me that is crazy and even though I am not worried about something being wrong with the baby I also don't think I feel comfortable not having a doctor to see until then.

My g.p does not do maternal care so he will not see me but he said he will try to find me a doctor to see me until the ob will. STUPID!!!

Tired!!

Kalen has been sick since Monday and I am exhausted! He was so sick on Monday and it was so weird because I felt so bad for him but at the same time I loved it! Kalen would not leave my side and that is not normal at all. He is not one for cuddles so I was happy he wanted to cuddle and he even slept on me for most of the day. I miss the snuggles so much.

He started to feel better Tuesday except for this horrible cough that will not go away. I am hoping this thing starts to go away soon because Kalen is one VERY grumpy baby and that is leading to one VERY grumpy mommy.

Thank god for M because I am not sure where Kalen and I would be right now without him. Love you M!!

Can you see his big toe sticking through on his left foot? hahaha

He loves the fridge

Practicing his walking skills