Tuesday, April 19, 2011

Wow

Life has taken over. No more mommy free time, no more afternoon naps.

I have been crying a lot lately.... uncontrollably! Mostly at work which I am sure is a 50/50 split brought on by baby #2 and feeling so "temporary" at work. It's really embarrassing when my co-workers come into my office and I am crying for no real reason. I hope this is going to stop SOON!

The weirdest part about being back to work is that as much as it breaks my heart each morning to drop Kalen of at the day home I don't miss him when I am gone. Please don't take that the wrong way, I love him SO much and I love when I pick him up and he is clearly happy to see me. Maybe it's because he is with a friend that I trust so I don't have to worry about him. Maybe it's because I like being a mommy with more to talk about then just poop and sleep patterns.

I am now just about 17 weeks pregnant with baby #2 and all I can say is I am tried and emotional. I have been over reacting about most things for the last 2 weeks and even though I know that to be true (after the fact) in the moment I have no greater want then to punch someone in the face.... so instead I cry.

I am not sure this post was more then just a mangled up ramble but it's what is in my head right now.