My little Alligator

Kalen has extremely dry skin. His skin looks like that of a scaly beast. My poor baby looks like an alligator!

We went to the doctor last week and have been told not to bathe him more then twice a week and to lotion/ oil him up 2 to 3 times a week. He hates it when I put the lotion on him but so far it is working. His skin is noticeably less dry and flaky. Now we just have to work on his head. His head is still very dry so that is our mission for the week.

Missed some things

I am a bad blogger. I have missed some of Kalen's firsts already so I thought I would write one update for them.

Saturday April 17th Kalen had his first restaurant experience. Kalen and I went to the Olive Garden with my brother Dannen, his girlfriend Cindy and her mom Carol. He was so good the whole time. The Olive Garden always has a really long wait to get in. We got there about 6 pm, got a table just after 7 and were done eating around 8:30. Kalen slept the whole time. We got home just after 9 and he was definitely hungry but good otherwise.

Then Friday April 23rd Kalen finally slept in his bassinet for the WHOLE night. He still woke every 3 to 4 hours to eat but when he was done he went back into the bassinet and went to sleep. He has been sleeping in our bed at night and as nice as it is (he is so nice to snuggle with) it is not a pattern I want to keep going for long. It's just so hard when he falls asleep so much easier and stays asleep longer when he is in our bed.

Saturday April 24th Kalen had is first experience with snow/ rain. We went to the mall to find a baby carrier. When we left the mall it was snowing/ raining and Kalen was maybe less covered then he should have been and his poor little face was soaking wet by the time we finally hit the car. He was less then impressed but we all survived so we will just have to chalk it up to a learning experience for all. Sorry baby!

One month today

Kalen is one month old today and it's hard to believe time is flying by so quickly. He is already looking so much bigger then when he came home. I am looking forward to when he is more alert and playful. I think he is going to have one awesome personality.

A letter to my baby:

Dear Kalen,

Today you are one month old and I am in awe of everything you do. You have been more alert over the past week. You make the cutest faces I have ever seen and you can melt my heart with just one little lift of your cheek. You are still just making fart smiles but they are so cute!

You are becoming more vocal every day. Mommy's friend Sarah came by the other day and I was telling her that I am so curious to know what your voice will sound like when you speak and if your hair will stay red like it is now. I can't wait to see you grow into a handsome little boy. I love you as the small little package you are today but I am also excited to see you grow and explore. Everyone keeps telling me that you look like your daddy, I can kind of see it, but you do have my nose and ears so you will be a good combo of both I think.

Daddy and I wanted you for so long and now that you are here I am scared to death that we will let you down. That as much as we want to we won't be the parents you deserve. I promise that no matter what happens in the future daddy and I will be here for you. Here to love you when you need us and be tough when you need us. We may not always do what you want us to but we will try to do our best to do what you need us to do.

I'll love you forever,

I'll like you for always,

as long as i'm living

my baby you'll be. Robert Munch

I love you Kalen.

Mommy

My baby in black and white

He's growing

Kalen had a check up today and he is growing like a weed. He is 4 weeks 1 day old today. He was 6 pounds 3 ounces and 20 inches long. Good job buddy!

More Pictures of Kalen

3 weeks old

Wow how time flies. I can't believe Kalen is 3 weeks old already. I am so happy that he is here with us. He is such a good baby.

M and I are going on our first "date" tomorrow night. I think it will be nice to have some couple time but I am willing to bet we won't have much to talk about other then Kalen. Oh how life has changed. I am really looking forward to eating some really good food that I have not had for a while, butter and steak SOOOO excited.

We went for a visit at a friends house today. It was so good to get out. Her daughter is 6 and a half months old now and definitely developing her own little personality. I can't wait for Kalen to do more then eat and sleep. I am so excited for play dates where Kalen can actually play.

Due date

Happy Due date to us. Kalen is 2 weeks and 6 days old already and I can't believe how quickly time is flying.

When I look at my baby today I think about the fact that he was born so small. I am so sad when I think about how I failed him. It was my job to make sure that he was taken care of for those nine months and I did not do that. I know that it was not my fault that I had so many issues but I can't help but feel like I failed him.

I never imagined that I could love someone so instantly and so intensely. I am going to try my best not to fail him again. I know that's a lot to want as we all make mistakes and being a first time parent is one big test but I am going to try.

I love you Kalen! Daddy and I are both so happy to have you in our life.